browsing 2009

this is my last post for 2009,a year that carve lot of memories going through my life..bittersweet memories indeed.


-got my driving license.drove like a mad girl.

-result spm!i did very bad n i regret.if only i study well,i think i wouldnt be stuck in arau for 3 years atleast.but no regret,life must go on.

-arau.1st time being away from mak.i'm slowly adapting.learn to be myself.arau taught me a lot of being myself.i made new friends in arau.arau opened my mind out of the box,taught me that life is not just me n my inner circles.

-being away with friends.we hardly meet each other now.i miss them.yes i really do.dulu tetiap hari tgk muka,now....

-been polluting my body with a lot of junk food.i consumed a lot of junk food.and i am ending 2009 with SLURPEE as companion.i am slowly increasing my blood-glucose level..

i thnk theres just too much to be listed here.2009 is the year where i found myself,where i learn how to be me,where i learn that life i not just about myself,where i learn not to be selfish..i have to care for the others too..

a year ahead means a year older.lets pray hard that 2010 will bring us joy,happiness,wealthy health and no more tears.to friends,may our friendship lasts forever!

....and off they go

yesterday,danial,sarah and their parents went back to Kuantan..
this morning,went to the airport to send amin n his parents back to KK..
just now at 8,went to the airport again sending ammar,adam and amir off to KL..
now,i feel like theres just nobody in the house..feel empty and lonely..
everything went back to normal..to daily routine..
oh,i just wish the time could be paused and we'll spend more time together..
2 months feel just like 2 weeks..
at first it is full-house,and just a blink,it WAS full-house..

i HAVE to change!

i dont like this kinda feeling..i cant control my temper.i got agitated and flustered most of the times when i talk about something that i know i cant have it in any possible way.i sometimes feel like going somewhere where there is just me,without anyone else that could say NO when i feel like doing something or going somewhere.when i act rudely or speak harsh words (to be exact),i feel like its a satisfaction to let it all out in an improper way of etiquette.and when im done,i'll feel guilty and tend to keep it to myself without any attempt to say sorry to them who i've thrown harsh words to.the problem here is,i usually let everything out to my loved ones,my mom is always the one.thats the real problem because she is my mother.

people who knew me well,my friends esp,might not know about this as i dont usually talk about the thing with them.they just dont know me wholly as i kinda keep little something myself.i dont tell them everything except my mother.they might say that i am soft spoken and rarely speak harsh.but thats just my alter ego and i dont like it.i am trying to build my patience.oh god,i need some help here.lets make a new fresh starts with this coming 2010.i need to change!i HAVE to change!

fingers-crossing for a prosperous and joyous life coming ahead!

gotta be somebody

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I'll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my own breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with

`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight, out on the street out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my own breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with?

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can´t give up!
Lookin´ for that diamond in the rough
You never know but when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.


Nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there.

*tiba-tiba tersuka lagu ni
**to frens yg tgh down sbb the breakups n whatsoever,try to be deep inside this lyrics.BANGKIT kawan!

;((

woke up this morning and my laptop is empty.
i mean,literally empty.
i lost everything that i've been keeping inside the hard disk.
i lost all the pictures since high school.
i lost the movies that i've been downloading eversince i know how to use torrent.
luckily theres no anything so important.
but i think,the pictures-the memories is the only thing i regret for losing it.
for some people,pictures may not be such a big deal,but the sentimental value is what im trying to highlight here.
i may lost all the picture with my friends,but memories will remain in my heart.

dont talk until it happens.for real!

aku dah tak nak harap apa dah..bila aku mencanang sini sana tentang sesuatu,pasti sesuatu itu tak akan menjadi ataupun tak menjadi seperti yang diimpikan..aku dah agak letih dah mungkin,bila perkara macam macam ni selalu terjadi dekat aku..mungkin lepas ni aku akan diam je lah apa apa yang akan atau sedang aku lakukan..jangan hairanlah lepas ni kalau aku bertukar jadi seorang yang tak bercakap atau pun bercakap seorang diri..mungkin "nabilah the geek" akan lahir lepas ni,siapa tahu.

i read this.U?

this is my reading material to fill my past time..hell yeah i have plenty of time to be killed..i'm currently reading this book..i'm halway of fininshing this romantic love story..i hope it will wraps up with a happy ending or else i swear i wont buy any other english romance novel as they are filthy expensive..i could possibly buy 2 malay novels at the price of one english novel..sheesh..hue hue.

hurm,just now after sending my cousin to tuition class,i had a conversation with my bro

apat:abg tak faham laa pasepa library tu kna pkai proper attire like wearing shoes
n long pants..whats the point?

me:ntah..pelik2 betoi rulesnya.

apat:cuba pkiaq,what has got to do with someone's appearance dgn nk baca
buku..xdak keja kaa nk besiap elok2 stakat nk p library ja pon..sbb tu laa
bebudak melayu mls nk p library..sapa yg sanggop kalot besiap elok2 stakat nk
p library ja pon..kalo nk p clubbing kot laa kan..that day,abg sound laa pakgad
tu cos he halau abg bcos i wear slippers n shorts.

me:heh?apat p library aloq staq?baca buku apa?

apat:ey,xcaya ka abg p library?abg cari buku A.Samad Said.

me:what the...*gelak tak tahan*

*sgt tak caya my bro sgt sastera..haha

semua dah tak penting kot..xdak hang lg bagus ok!nak sukaa kat orang lain pulak..hang tak setia ngan aku..xmau kawan dah.puiihhhh!

i just dont know what is the best.

i have an issue here.its about two things that means a world to me.its either friends or family..which should i pick?i cant have both at the same time.both are just priceless..if i choose friends,i wont be able to make it by 26th Dec for the feast and somewhat a gathering with my extended family..if i choose family,i wont be able to meet up my real good friends for the excitement..the thing is,i LOVE both..friends and family are just equal..or shall i play safe by not attending both..neither friends nor family,just me ALONE..i dont think thats good..i dont live a solitary life.

result

the result is finally out..alhamdulillah,but still i am not satisfied with it..i could have done a lot better than that..but theres just no use to keep whining and complaining about it considering my commitment of studying for the final exam..all i did was burning my every hours sleeping and lazing around..i couldnt have thank more for the result.

*nex sem:burn the midnight oil!heee

tag tag tag

i've been tagged by nawwal..she wrote that she tagged nabilala,hey,thats me laa kan??kan??haha
here comes the tag..oh btw,tnx nawwal for tagging me..

Bila kali terakhir anda pergi bercuti dan kenapa/sebab anda nak pergi bercuti?

woah..seems like ages lah my last cuti2 msia..cant recall when was our last vacation together..

Berapakah umur anda? adakah anda rasa puas dengan pencapaian anda diusia anda sekarang ni?

18 and counting on to be 19..woah,saya sgt tua..

Anda mungkin seorang blogger, bila waktu yang paling anda suka untuk update/kemaskini blog anda dan kenapa anda pilih waktu itu?

i usually blog during midnight when everybody asleep..haha..jiwang much ha?

Apakah matlamat anda untuk tahun 2010?
success,healthy,wealthy

Apakah yang berlegar2 dalam fikiran anda sekarang?

a dslr?haha

Apakah habbits anda?

tarik2 anak rambot msa tgk tv..haha

Senaraikan 4 perkara yang anda akan lakukan selepas menjawab tag saya ni?
1)set my butt on the car seat n yan,here i come
2)play with mikha sampai malam..haha

*saya pon tatau nk wat apa lg..

Adakah anda seorang yang pemarah/pendendam / bengis? dan cara anda mengatasinya

tak..saya perengus.haha

What happened to you in 2001 till 2004?

i was still a kid who just know to play.

Saya menge-tag:
sesiapajek yg trasa nk buat tag neh..terima kaseh

yeah,she finally lets her blog to be read publicly..i love to read her blog before,but last couples of weeks,oh maybe a month,she switch her blog mode to private and i cant read her blog..her writings kinda inspiring me a lot..and lets hope she wont switch it off to public again.

dear "little" sissie

had a fight with my 'retarded' sissie..ohmaigod,why on earth do i have a sis like her?she's such a cry baby with silly attitude and couldnt even act her age..she's 26 and not even married yet and i think she has a brain of 12 years old..she cant even think of the most easiest thing in the world..we often had fight just because.*can i say just because?i cant find good words to describe the cause of the fight*

at this time being,i HATE her..i know hate is a strong word,but i HATE her.

fearless

everytime i said to myself that i want to do something,the thing will never be done until one fine day,when the thought of doing that something just suddenly crosses my mind.

next time,dont promise to urself or anyone else of anything that u are unsure of it.

taktahu tajuk

plan nk mem'baking' apple pie tidak menjadi pada hari ini kerana saya dengan jayanya telah meng'herbinate'kan diri selama 5 jam dari jam 12 tgh hari sehingga 5 petang walaupun saya bangun pagi pada jam 8..hebatkan saya?mahu lawan?

mungkin esok pula saya akan teruskan misi tertangguh itu..sekiranya bantal dan tilam tidak menggoda mata dan nafsu saya,mungkin saya akan memuatnaikkan gambar pai epal esok..ya,mungkinlah..itupun sekiranya pai itu terjadi dengan jayanya..dan juga sekiranya pai epal itu sempat di'photoshoot'kan sebelum dibaham oleh si omnivor-omnivor yang berada di rumah *perasan pula saya macam saya masak sedap sangat*

tengoklah esok bagaimana keadaannya..oh ya,esok saya 'off' sehari..yeay,xperlulah saya menahan nafsu memaki orang semasa memandu..yeaahaa!

i'm thinking of baking tomorrow..my mood came accrosed me when i watched AFC this morning..i want to bake apple pie..yeah..went to giant this evening and bought everything needed for the pie..hopefully i'll wake up early tomorrow..muehehe..

oh yea,last two weeks i baked oreo cheesecake..i wanted to upload th picture but it end up me being drowned in time..muehehe..the cake was quite ok for the first trial..because i use more cheaper cream cheese instead of PHILADELPHEA cream cheese,my cake became not so cheesy like the one from Secret Recipe..
esok nk baking lagi..oh,i just love baking..hee..

i hit a car just now.i was reversing and suddenly,boom!i hit the car..luckily i wasnt speeding at that time..so,nothing happened to my car and that pakcik's car..what a relief..if not,where shall i find the money to pay for the 'treatment' of the car..

oh yeah,i am a full-time driver nowadays.sending and fetching mak no more,but sending and fetching my lil cousin from tuition classes as his parents left him here and they went back to sabah..frankly,i am sick of driving..i hate it when it comes to slow and steady driver in front of me..hey,wtf,i got no time to wait!

100th

i think i really need to start eating the right way..rice is my staple food..i need to get rid of that evil-fattening-make-me-fat staple food..i'm gaining weight!i need to worry about this bcos i'm already fat..if i have jessica alba's body,i wont be friggin worried..

what should i eat?will i survive if i eat fruits daily?vege is so a no-no bcos my throat just couldnt agree with those GREEN creatures..i'm praying that uni will open real soon bcos i eat less n exercise more when i'm in college as i have to walk to go anywhere..plus i have to climb up that fucking tall building to reach for my room..and when i'm at home,i keep pumping my body like pumping balloons with my imbalance diet and unhealthy life..and that is so shit..

all i want for now is a genie who could possibly grant my wish to have a body of jessica alba which i definitely 200% sure that i wont have one alike my whole life..

to make it worst,i am totally BROKE,helpless,hopeless and loveless..luckily i still have a brain that is still functioning quite well for this time being or else,please somebody get the gun and shoot straight on my head!

oh yeah,please put a teddy bear at my head before triggering the bullet..that will help to lessen the sound of the gun..tnx to CSI..

urm,one more thing,THANKS a bunch for spending ur precious time reading my crap..

thats all for today,
THANK YOU :))

i had an awesome day with awesome people whom i shower them with love.
how about you?

sin and laugh

went out with mak yesterday..mak had to go to several banks and being a good daughter,i drove her to whenever she wanted to go!haha..ok2,proud enough!

alor star was badly congested yesterday..i felt like i was in kl or some other place which is famous for its traffic congestion..haha..i was a big sinner yesterday..i cursed A LOT..i nearly FUCKED that chinese man for not properly parked his car by the road side..bodoh! thankfully i didnt fucked him or else he must have stopped me and do something to me as he really looked like a gangster..ok,maybe he's one of them..haha..n while waiting for mak in the car,i kept thinking that we got to go back to basic..maybe not literally basic,but maybe we need to find one way to reduce the congestion..the thought of we,the man,may use bicycles for daily basis crossed my mind..haha..buleh byg dak p keja nek gerek?that must be interesting!i think we should follow what the Netherlanders had been practicing nowadays..beside reducing traffic congestion,we could also reduce the rate of air pollution and eventually reduce global warming..but that might not be practiced here in malaysia cause of the weather..adoih..

enough of the high school essay.last night i brought my other 2 cousins for a movie..at 1st,they wanted to watch A Christmas Carol,but then the show wasnt here yet in Alor Star..shit man!then we decided to watch Phobia 2..ngahaha..perhaps that wasnt quite a good idea though..the 2 guys were screaming like hell..haha..lawak betol..agak takot ah cita tu..but the ending was hilarious..the whole cinema were laughing out loud..haha..the show ended at 12 midnight n my uncle was escorting us back bcos he was worried of me driving late at night..haha..mcm apa lg..

why am i being so mushy and emotional these few days?i cried while finishing a novel..well,thats maybe just normal when i read sad love story..but the worst is i even cried when i watch marathon of The Bigest Loser..heck,that is not even a sappy-mushy-sad show!that is a weight-loss reality show..pelik gila kot aku neh..what else when i watched Nur Kasih last night..i cried..yes,i DID..what has got into me?why my tears is so generously popping out?

plus my life is turning up-side-down right now..sleep at 4 in the morning,wake up at 2 pm (at least),breakfast at 3..lunch at 8 pm and dinner at 12 midnight..where on earth am i living now?does all this effect my mood?why am i being such a cry-baby right now?

let the background be black and dull and gloom..as gloomy as my heart is rite now..i know i always complain about how pathetic my life is..but the complaints are just plain truth..the truth that i have to face..the truth that i have to conquer before they conquer my life..i always wanted everything..everything that i cant even reach..something that is beyond the limit..i need that everything..but i am totally broke..but this life isnt just about money..money is not just the thing..though money is mostly everything..sometimes,i feel like screaming and dancing in the rain,but being rational me,i still have pride and shame towards others..but giving it a second thought,why cant i do the thing that i love at the first place?life is just like a circle with no ending and no beginning..i always know what i want in life..but theres always something that stop me from doing the thing that i love..my passion..and being nabilah sharipudin,i always down on my knees,doing the thing that people say thats the best thing for me to do..why didnt i have the strength to at least say NO?even if i cant say 'i dont want to'..why cant i say NO with firm?why am i losing my grip?im totally hopeless and helpless..

'why do Allah created gaps between our fingers?so that all the gaps will be filled by the person who will always be by our side..if not now,one fine day'

okay i always love this quote..haha..saja gedik nk post..gatai dah..

money money money

'i am desperately in need of MONEY'
why does everything in this world has to deal with money?can we just pluck the leaves on trees and pay everything with that leaves?
or can we have a lot of money easily just by plucking it from trees or something as easy as ABC?
or can we just deal with everything without money at all?money-less life..auwh,that'll be heaven on earth..
money constraint-thats the bigest ordeal in life i guess..be it ur an adult,ur teens,even kids also need money in life..haih,how can i have money in just a short period of time?
i need new handbag..
i want new watch..
i really have to buy bio-oil to heal my scars all over my body..
i must go to kl and have fun..
i am ought to buy new shoes..
i need new lenses..
my spec is not so clear now..i need new one..
i want that strappy shoes..
blaa..blaa..blaaaa..
and the list goes on with no ending..thats people,human..we never did have satisfaction in life..how i wish i can have everything in life..i should be Paris Hilton then..haha..auwh!

memories

im addicted to the sims..blame them for giving me this game..haha..i cant sleep tonite..my eyes are wide open..i dont sleep for the whole night long for the FIRST time!yeehaaa..i am so a sleepy-head..but not tonite..the sims seems to attract me more than the pillows did..now its already 5.10 am..i better wait until subuh prayer before i sleep or else,it will lebuh begitu sahaja..after 4 hours non-stop of playing the game,i stopped n started browsing through the folders in my lappy..n i found these pictures..


this picture was taken in 2007 when we were in form 4..they were my best buddies..started knowing them in 2005..now we hardly meet each other..they are all based in KL except for me being 'thrown-out' to arau..the most left-ATAILLAH-is now in KTT doing preparation for medics..she'll fly to india next two years!!a DR to be..insyaallah!the other 2-ATIQAH n AZIE- are in UM doing foundation in physical science and alam bina..they r lucky to have been having to stay in the same room..haha..good luck people!i miss you loads ;D


this one was also taken in 2007..oh i miss this moment much..we were so adorably young and fresh..haha *as if we are already married with 10 children now* ngahahaha..rindu gila lah wey..buat mcm skolah tu bpk kta pnya..haha


the most havoc class ever..i miss this much much much...seriously,if i could turn back time,this will the time that i wish i could stay forever..sweet 16..i miss ckgu BB much..though i didnt quite like her when she taught me back then..haha..but i still miss u..miss everybody in the picture..we,the front row got tanned because of the magazine project..jurukamera tak bertauliah..ha,kan dah hitam..padan muka..tp aku tak kisah..asalkan boleh skip kelas addmath selalu..haha..jahat kan aku dulu..gambar yg 2 last ne tak payah ceritala hebatnya..gmbr paling aku suka n buat aku tesenyum2 sensorang depan lappy..we called ourselves parangers..cant remember who come out with the idea of PARANGERS..haha..lawak pulak bila igt balek..rindu semua kot..there were 11 of us,the parangers..the most cranky,crazy,hyper and annoying girls in class..haha..i miss each and everyone of u,girls..

NAWAL KHALTOM AHMAD FAUZY-UiTM,LAW
PUTERI NUR DIANA LATIFF-UPSI
NURUL ASHINAZ ABD MAJID-UPSI
IZZAH SYAZWANI ISHAK-UM,ENGINEERING(JAPAN)
NUR HAFIFAH ISMAIL-VANDERBILT UNIV-TENESSE,ENGINEERING
SITI NADIRAH OMAR-UNITEN,ENGINEERING
SITI NABILAH SHARIPUDIN-UiTM,ENGINEERING
NURUL ATIQAH MOHD IKHWANIZAM-UM,ALAM BINA
AZIEATUL AZRIN DZULKIPLI-UM,SAINS FIZIKAL
NURUL ATAILLAH ABD AZIZ-KTT,MEDICS
AZIMAH ABDUL RAHMAN-MAKTAB PERGURUAN

babes,i hope each n everyone of us will achieve our dream..good luck buddies..i love u all..friends forever ;)) *touching la pulak*

this is what u get for not studying ur ass out!

yeah..i finally completed my 1st semester final examination..it was 5 papers that i have to take for this sem..the last one was the most toughest one for me since i never like chemistry..thank god that i have to learn that boringly dull subject just for this semester..if and only if i pass the paper..i am so sure that im not gonna get 3.5 n above for this sem as i screwed up chemistry paper..but i still hope that i'll pass this superbly boring subject for this sem so that i wont have to learn it anymore until i die..haha..i wonder what does chemistry got to do with civil engineering?so not related..we the civil engineers are gonna build buildings and make roads..not creating another bombastic nuclear so that the US can make use of it to treat ill-equipped people especially the muslims not the way we are suppose to be treated!!i am so NOT into chemistry..such a boring subject and y do they still have to make it as a 4-credit-hour subject..shit!how am i gonna score 3.5 cgpa for this sem?mmg tak arh..

haish..whatever,passed is passed..let bygone be bygone..now lets face real pleasure of life where i dont have to face the books but FACEBOOK!haha..thats what life is..ngahaha..
1-go to popular bookstore and get myself novels
2-be the most kind driver ever lived on earth by sending n fetching mom from school
3-pay my debt towards mr.tv for ignoring him for the last couples of months
4-meeting all the crazy cousins this coming Aidil Adha
5-meet dania sophea for the first time
6-laughing out loud with adam mikhael
7-fooling around with buddies in sunway!yeah baby..tak sabar
8-gotta get back on shape ;)

*sorry for the not-related-at-all post's title ;D

YOU again

finally i got to meet YOU again..after quiet long time of not seeing YOU..haha..
though YOU just wore tracks,but still ur always charismatic..haha..*exaggerating*
okay im into YOU!obviously..

YOU-everything kot!

the internet is being such a bitch right now..i have to wait like ages just to load a page..celcom broadband in arau is no big help at all..please come and upgrade ur reception here,dear celcom.thank you.

BEL120: CONSOLIDATING LANGUAGE SKILLS

"ways to promote unity and tolerance for malaysians"

yeah,i crap all the way from the first word until fullstop in the last paragraph..
great!

*fingers-crossing for good results.

please

as usual,i screwed up my study schedule..again!haha..that is so me..my study end up me,dashing on the keyboard..yeay!boohooo..why lah i am so not in the mood to study?i need that burning desire for me to digest the fact well..someone please find and press the ON button to activate my STUDY MODE..please people!

heh,cepatlah!

cant wait to set my butt in kl..heee..

1.nk jumpak dania sophea yg comel amat..pity sophea didnt get the chance to know her awesome 'maksu billa' yet..she's already almost 3 months old,and still dont know me yet!hey,what a waste..haha..

2.i miss adam mikhael much!miss him calling me 'gagak' instead of kakak..haha..he is supposed to call me maksu billa but he insist and call me 'gagak'..haha..pelat betoi budak neh..haha..grr..miss mikha much!cant wait to play with him and tease him and take his picture..haha

3.SHOPPING!yeah..thats the main reason for my mind cant stop thinking bout kl..hee..bags,shoes and more pants..yeah..wait ogeyh!

4.friends!yeehaaa..AFIQAH AHMAD,please make urself free when i go to kl ogeyh..u HAVE to be my tourguide and bring me all over kl..heee..NAWAL KHALTOM,HIKMAH,AZIEATUL AZRIN n NURUL ATIQAH,jom lepak naik rollercoaster weyh!haha..lets scream our lungs out!i feel like screaming right now..cant wait to meet u guys..

ouh!sangat tak sabar ye..finals,come lah cepat so that i can go to kl faster..

wake up!

great!final is just next door okay!wake up lah weyh!just go and set ur butt on that chair and study!u gotta lot to catch up esp on chem..plus physics!i know i have a lot to concentrate on,but being SITI NABILAH SHARIPUDIN,studying last minute and lazing around is just my forte.cant help that.i guess it runs in the blood..it is so not me if u see me with those fat-book in library..haha

been stalking people who are in love in facebook..
i should have suppose to have a strong dislike for them who are in love without any halal relationship..but being a girl at norm,i seem to have a firm comfort seeing them spreading their love..been smiling alone looking at their pictures..i shouldnt do that!mungkin tak kuat iman sgt kot nk rasa hatred towards other people doing illegal things..entahlah..

ok hari ini jumpak dia lagi..
he wore black..and it ignites..
he looked totally comel ;D

YOU make me smile ;))

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile..

courtesy of ;uncle kracker:smile'

bullsh*t

current addiction: plugging my ears with earphone and maximizes the volume..
mood: unstable
feelings: melancholy
current song: breath by taylor swift

missing alor star so much.miss the food
1.laksa lemak wah toh guan
2.hot plate food court pacific
3.tomyam kung secret recipe (i wonder do perlis citizen ever teringin to makan kat secret recipe?)
4.nasi mamak yasmeen pokok ceri:ayam madu plus teloq sotong and teh ais!
5.ice-blended vanilla plus oreo at emerald,city plaza..

i dont want penang,i dont want kl,i dont need new york,i want ALOR STAR.

sorrrrrrryyyyyyyy to my roomies,(ika,mimi n sue) for having to listen to my 'super sedap' voice everynight when i go to bed..

p/s: im sick of people who come late at night and knock my door just to have RM5 topup..its not even worth it for me to get down my bed and serve u people..

final is just like a mile away from now..but still,the spirit of study doesnt fully occupied me yet..maybe just 15% percent of my inner is thinking and worrying about the final,but the other 75% is just denying about the fact that final exam is on the 28th..tests and quizzes are quite driving me towards insanity..plus the stupid-lousy Technical Talk on Industrialized Building System is disturbing my sleeping time on weekend..another thing is chemistry..i just dont quite get it how on earth people could fall in love with chemistry..i just cant understand the facts in the big-fat-thick book..cant digest the fact..cant even put myself into it during the lectures..i know that i can do anything,in fact,EVERYTHING..damn!i can even conquer the mountain,if and ONLY IF i put myself and my mind fully and wholly into it..but the issue is,i dont even have the desire in putting myself into studies..what else to be a study enthusiast..macam mana?

woot woot

Met him on 28th September,the first day of class after raya break..i was on the way to chem class n I suddenly bumped into him ;)) this wasnt the first time i met him..might be the third or the fourth..i cant exactly remember..

3rd October,Saturday,met him again at mushroom..*blooming,blooming* ;D but didn’t get the chance to say a word to him..*as if I have the guts to talk to him* hahaa..

7th October,bumped into him again exactly as I was off the shop..he wore his fac jacket n I got to know a fact about him,he is an Industrial Chemistry student.

Weee…senyum smpai telinga kot!haha..agak berjaya buat saya tidoq lmbt bangun..haha

cepatlah habes semua ini

gotta get back on track..
gotta keep myself up-to-date not with current issues,but with studies..
come on..dont be lame..
cant wait to finish my final exam..then,Kuala Lumpur,here i come..
my wardrobe is desperately in need of new clothes..ahaha..
cant wait to indulge myself with the pleasure of SHOPPING!..heee..wait wait wait..

baby kid ;D

this cute little girl is emylda safiya..she's super cute and adorable..tak tahan lah with this girl..sgt susah to capture her pic..she's my sister's friend's daughter..ckp byk gila ini budak..geram2..

meet naqiu,super adorable n huggable baby..haha..he's a mixed of malaysian-indonesian..cant get enough of his 'micheline arms'..the pictures were taken on 3rd hari raya..tatau laa anak sapa,main tangkap ja..geram sgt aku tgk mcm nk geget pipi dia..

why lah my post this time is about baby..does this means that i have to get married soon to have this kinda cute little baby?hahaha..crap!blajaq pon tahabeh lagi..boifren pon tarak,nak anak..keep on dreaming lah weyh!

raya pictures..more to come ;D

tgk dr bawah ke atas okeyh..

1.dad's chicken curry was irresistible..cant get enough of his chicken curry.
2.mom's serunding is the best..cant find anywhere else that taste exactly the same.
3.im gaining weight day by day as i ate too much of kuih raya.
4.more duit raya than last year..haha..never thought so as i dah tua..haha
5.sunset at PANTAI MURNI is a must as always..but without kaklang,kaklong and ili..it wasnt the same as last year's ;(
6.didnt get the chance to meet syahirah as she was with her mom ;(

more pictures to come.just wait ogeyh :))

happy eid mubarak

since most of the bloggers have wished happy eid mubarak,so,i am now with humbleness,wishing SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI to all muslims all over the world.hope all of us will have a blast hari raya.and joyous and prosperous life in days ahead.



'ampun maaf dipinta dari hujung rambut hingga hujung kaki andai ada tersalah dan terkasar bahasa'.

onetwothree

one

two

three

this is what i did during chemistry class.world seems to be a better place when i shut my eyes and deafen my ears.my brain just cant accept the facts on basic chemistry for engineers.

bengang kuasa tiga

bengang dan bengang dan bengang lagi..

kenapa?sbb semalam punya penat aku karang ayat jiwa karat intan payung segala bagai,and suddenly internet connection lost..and tak sempat nak save.mcm babas kan?mmglah menguji kesabaran di bulan puasa yg mulia ini..terima kasih kepada celcom broadband yang mcm hampes sahaja walopon bayor byk tetiap bulan tetapi still connection kalah kura- kura berjalan..dan terima kasih juga kepada authorities UiTM arau kerana bilik aku tak dapat line wireless walopon dah bebulan aku daftar wireless tu..apa malang nasib pun taktau lah kerana bilik aku juga dipenuhi serangga2 halus pada hampir setiap malam sehingga aku dijadikan sebgai menu harian mereka.dh penuh 1 badan aku dgn kesan gigitan serangga ini yg meninggalkan parut degil..siapa tak bengang,angkat kaki!mungkin ini dugaannya duduk kat arau yg aman damai terpencil ini.sekian terima kasih.

final destination dan kotiau IMAN

went out for a midnight movie last night with my bro and his other 2 friends,ollie n fathi plus my sis..we watched FINAL DESTINATION and frankly,i had to catch up my breath watching this movie.it was quite horrifying watching the way they died..i followed its triology before this and the storyline was just the same and nothing change except for the cast of course and the cgi effect was quite stunning!but at the beginning of the movie was quite menipu and nmpk kartun sgt2..agak merentap tangkai jantung lah watching this movie as the way they die were quite creepy and giving me goosebumps!

the hero wasnt so good looking but he is quite charismatic and the role suits him well.her girlfriend wasnt as beautiful as the heroine of final destination 3..but yeah,i dont care as long as she act well and didnt seems kaku or whatsoever..

the theater was full with mostly chinese and our seats were behind a group of boys who seems to be penakut as they were screaming like a girl bila ada scene tekejut tekejut..sebijik mcm auw..aku dh taklarat gelak dgr their screams..mcm sial dowh..

then,on the way home,my stomach was singing hard rock song begging to be fed..haha..we pull over at kotiau IMAN and yummy2 kotiau special masuk perut dgn selamatnya..hee..irresistable!my bro had two plates of kotiau iman yg sedap lg mengancam!heavennya ALOQ STAQ!

the outing ;D

went out with long-time-no-see friends last saturday..and it was quite a blast..even we just spent our time bowling together..hee..i miss them..and my other friends..thank god we managed to meet up eventhough there were some circumstances before the meeting..hee..thanks to imah for being such a good listener about my problems..and thanks too for listening to my blabbering and such..i know im such a jerk for not being thankful of what i've been going through,what i am going through and what i will be going through..and now i officially miss highschool so much..i miss the memories we shared during that time..it is soo true when people said abcencies make the heart grow fonder.

future doctor,future teacher and a future engineer.INSYAALLAH!!

mulakan harimu dgn semangat baru!

yesterday was disaster..again..bangun pkol 7.15 sedangkan klas starts at 8..mmg la ada 45 minit lg but nk jln g klas ja dh mkn msa stengah jam..gilalah..mcm ribut aku terjun katil p bilik ayaq belah habeh smua yg ada di situ..ampun!dh tak nmpk apa dh time tu..habeh tebabas sgala benda yg wajib..ayam betol..ni yg aku lemah ne kalo mai cuaca sejuk2 ne..asek nk tarek slimut tutup 1 bdn je..kuak lentang tak hbeh2..adoyai!

tutup kes bangun lambat..ondaway nk p klas pulak,sliper aku putus!gilalah..dh laa lmbt dah,sliper pulak putus..tgh2 jalan pulak..dpn boys part3 engine pulak..babeng!aku mcm nk menyumpah jaa kasut tu haa biaq jd katak..xjga tuan betol..dah laa kelas ECM kat blok C sana yg jauhnya lbeh kurang 2 batu lg..(aku agak laa)..jd bejalanlah aku smbil menyeret kaki..mcm sial kan..bulan2 puasa neh mmg laa byk dugaan..

dugaan bkn hbeh takat tu ja,besambong pulak msok kelas koko petang jumaat yg mulia tu..haiyak!dh laa hujan..basah hbeh baju tara nk smpai kelas koko..mcm sial kna diri tgh hujan pulak nyanyi lagu negaraku..adoilaa..apa malang entahla..tp sebaik abg comander tu muka comel,boleh cuci mata..haha..saiko dh aku benda2 malang jd pd hari yg sama..tulah alkisah hari jumaat yg agak malang..

*tajuk entry tade kene mengena pon dgn isi entry..haha..layan!

i think i just dont do good in anything but sleep and eat and online..other than that,NONE..

the homesick feeling is fading day by day..but

i think i miss my friends..
feel like putting the days on the treadmill machine and run as fast as i can so that hari raya comes earlier so that i can meet them..

oh hey!i'll be in alor star on this 28th and,FIQ,please miss me..cause i wanna spend a day with u okay..

why?

why am i so lazy to get that big fat book and study the facts in it which will surely gonna come out in the test next week?
why am i just entertaining myself with the movies that i've had seen before?
why am i wasting my time reading all those novels that definitely not helping me at all on my studies?
and how on earth do i still have time to on-line as if theres no test coming soon..
i guess thats just me,studying last minute is like a drug of my own brand..haha

wish myself goodluck for the coming physics and calculus test..
double-finger crossed for easy breezy question coming out..

homesick pulak

a week holiday make me feel even more homesick than the first day i arrived here..
i dont know why,but i just dont feel good leaving home..

HOMESICK

ROOM-SICK

BED-SICK

FRIEND-SICK

dan segala bagai sick dah yg aku takto nk handle cemana..just menyibukkan diri with all the works just to forget about that for a while..FOR A WHILE..and when i get on bed,ready to sleep,i cant sleep..have been an insomniac for 3 nights in a row..and that is soo not good..its hard when u r sleepy,but then ur eyes are just tooo stubborn to close.. bengang tau dak..rsa mcm nk guling2 n balot diri dlm slimut bg buleh lena..

lets hope i can sleep tonight..sleep tight,dont let the bedbug bite..

life

feel like 'switching off' myself.end everything gloomy sad sad thing,put a fullstop at the end of every single problem and then,press the 'on' button,n there u go..a new chapter in life..a chapter of life that will definitely has a happy ending..not a chapter with a sappy sad ending..never want to listen to the music like the end of a sad movie..i want a new fresh life where i can dance like nobody could ever see me..where i can sing like no one could ever hear my voice..where i can laugh and laugh and laugh like theres no tomorow..can i have that kind of life?where theres not even a single problem?yeah,keep on dreaming..coz its not life if what u have to do is just enjoy urself with no boundaries..guess i just have to go with the flow n settle everything on my own..and that is reality and sometimes,reality bites.

doom doom doom

last night was disaster..i accidentally forgot that i have ANNUAL GRAND MEETING of CIVIL ENGINEERING course..seriously,theres not even a bug of info about the AGM in my mind..i was happily enjoying myself at home as if i dont have to go back to college..and yes theres no place like home..haha..but still i am in big-huge-enourmous trouble for not attending the AGM..luckily my friends are so cool..the signed my name last night..lets hope that they'll not find out about me not attending the AGM..if not,i am soo dooom..

rumah manis rumah

yippie yeehaa yariba yariba!!
yes!!i AM finally home!yess yess yess!!
even just for 3 days until this monday,i am finally able to be home..
actually i am not suppose to be home as this sunday there will be a motivation talk but who cares,i'll ditch that to be home sweet home..haha.
seriously,being a univ. student is hectic..a real hectic life..especially when u r in uitm,a three-quarter-government-sponsored-university,where u have to obey every single ridiculous rules ever created..haha..that is so hyperbole..
and when u r doing diploma in uitm,u have to and it is COMPULSORY for u to join co-curricular activity..hoho..this is sooooo school-like..and i am soooooo obviously not into it ;((
the very first week of my life in uitm arau was the most unbelievably indescribable to be expressed in words..*i love to exagerate things*haha
MMS week was so doom..like shitty shit of the fucking fuckers..we were rushing every now and then like a mad-old-woman running out of her liquour..super-walked to every place in the campus..being told about the same lame repeating things that i think even 7-year-old would have known it..it was soo boring and hectic and i didnt even enjoy myself there..i didnt have friends,i did everything on my own..huuu..hectic hectic hectic..thats all i can say..
n now,after adapting myself,after making new friends,i find out that its not so bad being there..its just either i do it,or i wont make it at all..i have to survive on my own..without family,without besties..its just a world of strangers..


n miss my friends so bad..cant wait for raya to meet them all..i think none of my new friends can replace them..they are like my family..they who always tell me whats the right thing to do,whats the best for me to do,which path should i take and they are my guardian angles..

to afiqah,nawal,azimah,atiqah,azie,ataillah,puteri,shinaz,nadie,izzah and k.pah..i miss u.cant wait to meet and gather this raya..goodluck in everything that u do an may ALLAH bless us all..

TRANSFORMERS

TRANSFORMERS:REVENGE OF THE FALLEN was a blast..
perfectly blend with perfect cgi n sound system plus awesome storyline..
watching this movie makes my adrenaline rises and my blood pumping faster than ever..
n i think its the longest movie duration i've ever watched..
2 1/2 hours of suspends plus the cool atmosphere as if i was in london during winter never fail to make me sleepy during the show..
perhaps,i dont think i blink while watching this movie *drools*drools*
5 plus 3 stars which make it 8 stars for this movie ********two-thumps up!!

durian oh durian

everything smells durian..the kitchen esp..that kinda bothers me a little as i cant stand the distinctive odor of the prickly edible fruit..the ice cubes in the fridge were as if they have been soaked in durian..i can taste durian when i made iced milo using the ice cubes from the fridge..that is soo soo not good..my throat cant accept the rotten taste of durian..i hardly understand how on earth people are so keen on the king of fruits..it smells like rotten flesh..making it worst,the smell is so strong,i mean super strong..euww,no offense,it is sooo disgusting..i wonder how can they eat durian like it is the last population of fruits left on this planet earth..i know people would say that i am so not malaysian for not eating durian,but for me,i find that durian has an overpowering aroma and so offensive..

current obsession

cant get rid of this handsome good looking creature..cant get his smile out of my mind..he is just way too handsome to be forgotten or to be ignored..

he's the love cupid..i am so 'panah asmara'
muahahahaaa

tagged :D

1 . Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
forehead.haha

2 . How did you feel when you woke up this MORNING ?
omg..mlsnya nk bangun..

3 . Who was the last person / people you took a photo WITH ?
nana my couzie

4 . Would you consider yourself SPOILED ?
not really coz i have to work if i want something..haha

5 . Will you ever donate BLOOD ?
i'll faint if i see a lot of blood..

6 . Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite SEX ?
not for this time being..

7 . Do you want someone to be DEAD ?
no.

8 . What does your last text message SAY ?
i want to sleep.

9 . What are you thinking about right NOW ?
im thinking of nothing

10.Do you want someone to be with you right NOW ?
yeah.

11 . What was the time you went to bed last night ?
2.30 a.m.

12 . Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
sydney

13 . Is someone on your mind right NOW ?
avril?cause im listening to her song..haha

4 . Who was the last person who text YOU ?
nawal :D

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz .
just do if u feel like doing..

15 . Who is no.2 having a relationship WITH ?
-

16 . Is no.3 a male or a FEMALE ?
-

17 . If no.7 and no.1 get TOGETHER , would it be a good ?
-

18 . What is no.1 studying?
-

19 . When was the last time you chatted with THEM ?
-

the decision i make is a MAJOR BREAKTHROUGH in my whole life.
for the past 17 years and 6 months i've live this life,this is the time where i am being more matured,being a girl with responsibilities,being a girl who obeys parents,being a humble slave who obligates the CREATOR..

i've choose this path,and i am going to navigate this way on my own.i am the one who's gonna determine my future.nobody can say anything and im not gonna let them say a thing to bring me down.

my boyfriend

just ignore me..blogging season is striking me..my mind is boggled with ideas to write in this blog..and currently i am addicted to blogspot.com..who cares,this is my blog afterall..and i dont do any harm by the way..feel free to read and if u dont want to,just click here!!

and now PEOPLE,focus..focus..i am about to tell u the long-kept secret!!

P R E S E N T I N G . . . . .

my current steady boyfriend!!!

*in my dream..hahaha..keep on dreaming!

he's actually a guy i bumped into in KL monorail on my way back from times square last week.His cuteness is irresistible