insyaALLAH

it is such a happy happy happy news and i am soooooooo freaking happy for my cousin as she was offered to pursue her degree in ACCA from Dublin School of Business..alhamdulillah.i am so proud  of her but at the same time, i am sooooo freaking envious!she is of my age and just finished her diploma in accounting in kolej universiti insaniah,just an ordinary college but mungkin Allah bagi rezeki kt dia, and Allah bukak jalan untuk dia ke overseas..Alhamdulillah for her..

TAPI, a big fat massive disappointment for me as i was a bit late to fill the forms to several uni overseas sbb kebanyakkannya dah smpai deadline..xpa, mungkin kalau aku yg dpt pergi sana, maybe aku tak boleh survive alone..iman pon xberapa nak tebal mana, jd mungkin Allah tak bg rezeki untuk ke sana lg sebab aku belum bersedia mental,fizikal,emosi dan yg paling penting IMAN belum penuh di dada..siapa tau kalau aku dpt kesana sekarang, mungkin aku tak boleh score or jd terpesong (Nauzubillah hi min zalik) kan? insyaAllah Allah maha pemurah Ya Rahman Ya Rahim, mungkin rezeki aku datang dlm bentuk lain..mungkin Allah simpan untuk alam pekerjaan nanti..atau, rezeki dari segi suami mithali mungkin..siapa kita to predict these kind of rezeki kan? insyaAllah, put your trust on HIM..you have HIM even if you never obey HIM..rezeki, jodoh, ajal maut semua tu rahsia ALLAH..so PRAY AND NEVER STOP PRAYING!

it's already MAY..cepat betul masa jalan kan?sedar tak sedar,dah sebulan lebih aku duduk rumah doing nothing..wasting my time almost doing nothing but online..as i said before,bukan takmau kerja..nk kerja tp rsa mcm berat nk kerja sbb kalau kerja nnt my time will be limited..aku rsa smua org mcm aku kan?x suka kena kongkong and can't do what you WANT to do..betul tak??dah penat fikir pasal bnda ni..tak jugak selesai selesai..tp at least, i've make my move..dh try jual online..tp baru sikit je customer..tp syukurlah kan drpda takdak lgsung..hmm bnda ni kan takes time?hopefully lama2 nnt terjual laa smua bnda2 yg aku nk jual tu kan?insyaallah, kalau nawaitu ikhlas,ALLAH permudahkan jalan kan??insyaallah!!hwaiting nabilah!!

i know i'm tad late for this but whatever it is, syukur ALHAMDULILLAH thank you ALLAH!

that is the only thing i can say for now..truly unexpected..ALHAMDULILLAH :))

how and what you feel like when he finds you ONLY when he's bored?

i dont start..and i'm not waiting and clinging on him either..but i know he'll find me ONLY when he has nothing to do or in other word, when he's bored to death..

i'm not hoping for him to text me every day and every night..no,definitely not.

but i dont like to be used and feel like being used..erghhh,better not having any conversation senang cerita.

ish susah laa kalau asal on laptop ja,trus muncul muka tu..dah tukar desktop background, muncul pulak dkt homepage facebook!erghhh,takkan nk unfriend pulak??nnt terus tak boleh tgk muka dia..

merepek apa ni nabilah??move on will you?

i feel like finding a job but i dont seem to trust myself on doing anything related to what i've learnt in uni..

rsa nk kerja, tp at the same time, tak puas lagi lazing around at home doing nothing..terfikir nk kerja,tp terfikir jugak nnti kalau kerja, i will no longer have the time to do everything i like..semua benda akan restricted due to time constraint..i want to travel the world..even if its not overseas pon, dalam negeri pon belum habes jelajah lg..nnt kalau kerja,i wont have time for this..cuti smpai bulan 9 insyaallah..that means, i have about 4 months plus to be free from any academic things..lepas tu,i'll be on the run again for 2 and a half years more..then baru boleh masuk alam pekerjaan sebenar, insyaallah.

by that time,i wont be having time like this to enjoy myself lg dah..nnt priority mesti laa study sbb good grades equal to good job equal to good payment equal to good quality of life, insyaallah..everything is directly proportional to study!reality check!org tua2 ckp bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian..

hmm, now that i have time to be free from everything academic, i feel like i just want to be at home doing nothing except helping mom to do house chores..but at the same time, rasa mcm anak tak guna pulak sbb dah umur 21 still asking money from mom n dad..ish entahlaa..im torn apart..online business is the only way i can see yg boleh buat aku dok saja kat rumah tp at the same time, income pon masuk..TAPI, what should i sell?hmmm..lets just wait n see how everything turns out nnt..

16 April 2012.

crazy day i had.watched BATTLESHIP twice in a day!

i watched with my friends in the morning and when i got back home,i told my dad it was awesome and suddenly he gave me RM50 and asked me to buy tickets for two.at first i thought he was going with my mom but then he said, " no, im going with you, adik!"

hahaha..same movie within 11 hours!thats crazy!