hoi,apa nak jd ni nabilah??

i got a 700 words essay to write but i dont even have the feeling to get it done..

i learn about stress almost everyday which makes me stress too..

i have tonnes of formulas of solid mechanics,soil mechanics and calculus to be memorized but they dont seem to tempt me like facebook does..

i have issues with turbo C++ which i dont know how to get the coding done the right way but i seem to ignore that fact..

i should have stopped online-ing but it is just a part that completes my days like jigsaw puzzle..

the lecturers are busy arranging classes to cover cuti hari raya but that obviously doesnt even excites me..in fact,it just brings me down to the down-est of all downs..

hoi,apa nak jd ni nabilah??

piccas

oh haritu i said i'll upload the pictures i took in gua kerbau rite??

so here it comes..eh,they come!

muka excited smpai gua kerbau sbb nmpak byk kerbau..haha

xbyk gmbq time activity menyelamat sbb tak bwk hp msa panjat bukit..hee..tgu i pg sedut gmbq kt org lain k..hahaha

purghhh!

ok tak suka what im feeling right now..rasa mcm nak p sembunyi somewhere where no one else can find me..rasa mcm nk nangis but the tears couldnt come out..rasa mcm nk panjat bukit and be on top of it and scream my lungs out..i hate this kind of feelings where u couldnt do anything right..everything seems to be head over heels..and my brain cant even function well to make the right decision..and it feels like crap..these past few days,i got issues with my inner self where everything is not right in the first place..hey,pull me out please!

bla bla bla AGAIN!

i am now supposed to get my calculus tutorial done but still,i am in denial that i have tonnes of things to do..today,i ditched 3 classes in the evening session..i know i should be forbid to even think about it,but i dont know..the feeling of laziness lingers on me these past few days..so,i slept for 3 hours just now instead of just taking a nap..i ditched solid mechanics class and i know i gotta bear the consequences..i wont understand the whole topic and i know that..but still,im procrastinating myself that i know i can do that which is quite impossible for me reach unless i triple up my effort..next is soil mechanics..i think i can cope because just now was just a tutorial class..not lecture..so,i take the risk n im gonna bear the effect..the last one was CTU class and this 1 im 100% sure i can cope because everything is in the book..i just have to set my butt on the chair n study..

well,today has been nice..the pleasure of skipping classes cant be described..but of course the guilt is always there..oh yaa..this weekend is a packed one for me..i got bowling training this saturday and sunday is the tournament..grrr..when can i have just a day for myself??

gua kerbau

GUA KERBAU-once in a lifetime experience.

i dont expect that i can do that extremely extreme activity..like seriously extreme..panjat bukit,panjat curam 60 degrees,turun 90 degrees,usung mangsa yg berat jugak walopon orgnya kecik jaa..tp dh nmanya laki,mmg laa berat jugak..aku siap jatoh tergelincir lebam sana sini suma..mmg akan igt one whole lifetime laa..naseb baek laa ada si tiger yg sengal2 alang tu...walopon sengal,beguna jugak mamat tu..kalo dia tak grab aku,mmg arwah dh aku jatoh gaung tu..hish..nauzubillahh!

tp mmg fun lah camp JABATAN PERTAHANAN AWAM MALAYSIA tu even exhausting gila babs wa cakap lu!!tp semua tu dijadikan sbg pengajaran utk msa hadapan..

p/s:pictures will be uploaded later ;))

arau oh!

it has been roughly about a week since i set my butt here in arau..and so far,i gotta adapt myslef with the new environment here as i was moved to another college..not dahlia anymore..it kinda sucks at first because dahlia is like the first class of all colleges here in uitm perlis..i got beringin as my hostel..its like a house actually..with two rooms,4 persons each room that make up 8 persons a house..the worst part is,the house is equipped with 1 toilet and 1 bathroom..when it comes to the day where everyone in the house got class at 8 am,the problem arise..we have to fight for the bathroom to take shower..hoh..and i got to know new friends..my roomates are all in civil engineering and my other housemates are bankers..huehue..i gotta get to them well..im kinda hard to make new friends as i dont know how to start a conversation..but i hope i can cope well..hee

oh by the way,classes have started and i find it hard for me to cope with ECG which is basic soil mechanics because it has a lot of formulas to memorise..i mean A REAL LOT!plus the lect is being so fussy and cant even pronounce the terms correctly..and not bad-mouthing or what,but she has bad english which makes me kinda hard to understand what is she actually wants to say..sometimes i feel like raising up my hand and say 'mdm,boleh ckp melayu tak?' which obviously i dont..hah..

yes i CAN!

okay people,take a deep breathe everybody!
this is just the beginning..and all i need is time and strength..
time will change everything..and only time will..
with the he help of determination and effort,of course!
fingers-crossing for good luck and faith.