so i've been spending my time wisely these past few weeks..finally lah kan,after 2 months of break doing nothing,now at least i've done something productive!yeay me..so my busy days start of when i went to kl,er sri kembangan actually, to bring my grandma there as she wanted to visit her grandson having a new baby..so i brought my grandma there sbb dh takda org nk bwk dia,takkan nk let her travel alone pulak kan..so being a nice me,cewah,i tak jd pergi kerja nelson tu..konon2 berkorban sbb nk bwk tok p jumpak cicit kan..so i went there for 9 days..4 days spent dkt rumah my cousin tolong babysit my nephew n niece..now i miss them already awwww ;( kalau holiday ni makan mmg agenda utama lah kan?so now duduk rumah diam2 diet senyap2..haha..so heres some pictures yg sempat snap during my visit..

burger bakar taman equine..like omg,sedap gilaa!

nasi putih asam pedas-chawan,publika.

baby heidi is sooooo adowable suka senyum jaaa!!

adam mikhael being so proud of his 2 lamborghinies.

these 2 rascals were sooooooo freaking active walopon demam..i miss them now!mikha dh potong rambut afro dia..sayang betul!he said he wants to look handsome like daddy so he has to cut his hair short.

this is seriously a whine..yes im whining here..bukan apa,tp mcm terasa laa jugak over something..i feel like aku yg tersua-sua kalut suruh org p sana p sani..tp i dont know org tu suka ke tak diarahkan ke sana ke sini..tp kalau dh smua jenis buat tak tau ja,so siapa nk menggerakkan kan?so i played my part,contacting everybody to arrange for a meeting sbb kan dh lama tak jmpk catching up n such..n ada jgk org tu ckp dh lama tak jmpk si polan,nk jmpk si polan ni..n i did play my part to gather everyone kan..not once not twice,dh banyak kali ok!!so bila dh jd mcm ni, aku dh malas laa nk arrange apa2 pon lepas ni..n about the backpacking trip tu pon im not gonna take my part dah..dh penat hoping for something that is not gonna happen..xpa,ada rezeki nnt aku backpack lain even without you guys pon kan..xpa laa jgk even mimpi tak jd kenyataan pon drpd rasa down mcmni..its okay..thers always next time,tp im not ever gonna lead that 'next time'..find me when u guys have done discussing..im tired of being org tengah..like seriously!

tadi p pacific dgn mak saja jalan2 mak nk beli tudung..lepas tu p beli air dekat nelsons tu then nmpak ada iklan jawatan kosong..saja laa ringankan mulut tanya kak tu nk pakai org bila?then trus dia ckp,adik mai esok laa..boleh??amboi kak ni,tak menyempat betul..HAHA..terkejut aku tiba2 nk kena p keja esok kan..then aku pon ckp laa kat kak tu,esok tak boleh,15 ni boleh laa..haa then trus kak tu ckp ok,mai keja pkul 1..

haa cmtu jaa aku dpt keja..haha..alhamdulillah laa..yg lawaknya,gaji pon aku tak tanya berapa..nasib laa,jnji aku tak boring duduk rumah..kalau boleh insyaAllah nk keja 2 bulan smpai tgh bulan 8 ni which means before raya..lepas tu nk p jalan2 backpack with friends..insyaAllah,moga2 Allah permudah segala..amin ya rob!

my life has turned up side down for the past few days.my mind is not really at the state of normal..the thought of him keeps bothering my nights..i dont know why but i keep relating things i do or things i saw with him..everything i see through my days are always related to him or things i've done with him..i feel like knocking my head on the wall so that the thought is gone, but i know it never will.what has gotten into me,really? i dont like this kind of things..i can even relate random cars i saw on the road with him.oi,this is bullshit!i hope this weird feelings will fade soon. yes, the sooner the better.im tired of thinking about him to my sleep..

td belek2 folder gmbar yg ada dekat dalam external..lps tu terjumpak gmbar zaman part 3 UiTM..ok tu zaman paling rindu sekali..zaman rempit naik moto dari arau smpai kangar semata-mata nk makan kfc sbb kfc xdak lg dekat arau time tu..n of course lah bukan aku yg merempit sbb aku ni penakut bawak moto walaupun ada lesen..aku pon tak faham mcm mana aku lulus lesen moto dgn sekali test saja..HAHA..mesti laa my dear shafiqah yg rempit.aku naik blakang je..hehehe..rempit bersama skuter ego KCS warna merah!sanggup rempit smpai ke kangar semata-mata nak makan je..lepastu msa the first ever SECRET RECIPE in PERLIS bukak dkt kangar pon kami rempit jugak just to eat chocolate lava!!gila tak gila..sanggup rempit about 20 minutes just to eat!ohh rindunyaaaaa zaman naik moto dulu2..

ok dah.tu je nk ckp sebenarnya.tp malu nk ckp depan2..hik hik hik *sepak muke sendiri.kbye

lately i feel soooooo freaking lonely i dont even know why..i dont talk much nowadays..i can even count how many words i spoke on a particular day..i dont feel like talking and that freaks the hell out of me!!i am more to typing like what I AM DOING right now!!i spill almost every single thing i feel about anything on twitter and facebook and this blog too..i even connect with my friends through the net..who is to blame on this matter?am i becoming anti-social due to being toooooooooooo attached to social network sites??

bila dekat rumah ada wifi and masing2 terperuk dlm bilik masing2 tak keluar2 dah unless for food,mcmni laa jadinya..ckp dgn mak hari2 pon boleh kira dgn jari berapa patah perkataan yg keluar daripada mulut ni..haih..i dont want this to happen.like seriously, i dont want!i want my life like what i had when i was small, when i was in school, when i was with my friends living under the same roof..i dont like being who i am today.seriously i dont!

my current life revolves around no one but myself, my sister and my parents..the only time i communicate with my mom is when we are in the car, either me fetching her from school or whenever she asked me to bring her somewhere she wanted to..as for my dad, xpayah ckp laa..mmg plg byk ckp pon time nk suruh aku bangun pagi n breakfast ja..n ptg2 time dia nk suruh aku sapu smpah or beli makanan..tu jaa..kakak aku yg sorang tu,LAGIIILAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA susah even nk tgk muka pon..balik kerja terus terperuk dlm bilik..hmm me? the rest of time is spent in my room..kalau tak online, baca novel..lps mgrb,terus duduk dlm bilik tak keluar2 dh smpai esok pg pulak!

thats how pathetic my life is right now..tp bersyukur sbb masih lagi bernafas ni bumi tuhan ni..ALHAMDULILLAH..xsabar nk tunggu mak cuti sekolah sbb boleh p jalan2 so that i can communicate with REAL people..not virtually like i always did nowadays!!i want my normal life back, please!