Happy birthday to me!

it finally hits me that I am already 22 years old today!what have I achieved at the age of 22??none that benefits the society I supposed!dont worry, i'll work on that in time, insyaAllah :-D

So, alhamdulillah, praised to Allah that I am still alive and breathing now. Thank You for countless of blessings You've showered me with. Thanks for my parents,my family,my bestfriends,my friends,my life and the list goes on!! I could never thanked You enough for EVERYTHING!

and to my surprise, he remembers my birthday!in fact, he was one of the earliest among my friends who wished me last night!and that made my one whole day :-D or it could last for a week!!!hahaha

Footnote : growing older means getting closer to death. Be prepared, nabilah!

less than nine hours until my 22nd birthday. i wanna see how many people actually remember my birthday. i hid my birthday on facebook. this is the only way to know who's who in my timeline friend list. let see how many my actual friends is.

...of what i feel inside

theres just too much memories i have with him. its hard for me to get him off my mind if whatever i do everyday relates me to him. even listening to a song, i have memory with him too. getting to know the fact that he is freaking serious with his relationship right now, it bothers me a bit. i know i am not for him, i HAVE to and  OUGHT to forget him and accept him as one of my bestfriends as that is what he always say.

its ok, i let go.HE might have reserved me someone better and its just a matter of time.

ok fine, lets move on. NEXT!!

Tears and joy

Just to mark the calendar, 29.11.2012 was my convocation for my diploma in civil engineering. I finally have my diploma.my sweat,tears and everything in between.

So my life has been quite manageable so far in terms of studies n stuffs.but still im juggling to manage my time wisely here.

But one thing that is running in my head n my mind is about 'hati dan perasaan'

I actually hate that part cause its kind of tearing me inside.i dont think I should feel that way pun tapi entah,it still bothers.

Kadang I feel stupid for spending my time with him.what if he's not 'the one'??(well I dont even think he's the one pun sebab I dont think he feels the same too) tapi I dont know how to avoid.he keeps coming.

Told you I hate this kind of feeling!urgh sick you know, sick!!

Of palestine and peace.

It has been about two months since I last blogged.well, I just installed this app on my phone that I can blog on the go,so hopefully i'll blog more after this.
Life has been good but of course with some ups n downs which I should not complain more.

While i'm here complaining abt how piles of homeworks could ruin my life, how I dont have time to fold my machine-washed clothes, how lazy I am to go down n buy myself lunch, how I hate being g degree student, how hard I live here without a car to move around, and many other silly and absurd whining about my life rite now-there are other kids on the other side of the world who are fighting for their lives,without having sophisticated weapons to defend themselves against the zionist laknatullah!

Humanity is on the rock!

Killing those innocence kids,slaughtering n burning them to death with no mercy..what are those people thinking??defending themselves?from what??to me,they are nothing but coward.

I should be thankful enough for what I have now.ALHAMDULILLAH.

so muslims,let us pray.pray with all our heart, that the Allah will safe our brothers n sisters out there.thats the least we can do but in shaa Allah could make a huge difference.amin!

shah alam

It has been about two weeks since i set my butt here in Shah Alam. Yes, i got to continue my Degree here. Alhamdulillah I can cope here but obviously Arau served me better than here. I seriously miss my times in Arau. They say Shah Alam has everything but to me, here is plain, dull and hectic. Everyone is like a robot. Too engaged with own responsibilities. The dean of my faculty for me is kind of freaky and illogical. He decided the attendance to be 100% which means we have to attend each and every class without FAIL! That's why I say people here is like a robot that always work 24/7.

Well, I could not say much on that matter or else I'll be bailed. There is no students' voice here. Just because he holds the tittle DEAN OF CIVIL ENGINEERING FACULTY, everyone working under him is afraid of voicing out. I dont think that is rational and obviously it is not FAIR. Okay enough about that, please.

Oh, about my roommates, Alhamdulillah they are all awesome way beyond words. Thank Allah for that, or else I'll be more homesick because I take time to blend well with strangers.

Err,talking about degree, it is seriously hectic here. Everything is super fast and i have to work more on my own. Finding extra informations on the courses I take this semester, the tutorials, the pace that I have to be in line with, those are everything that is totally different from I came from previously. I MISS ARAU so freaking bad. I miss my buddies too. Shafiqah and Afifah. It feels different without them around. But Alhamdulillah we have phones nowadays, the only thing that keeps me in touch with them. Well, I could not complaint more. That is what life is afterall.