i should have stopped this from happening..not letting it spread like a virus, killing me slowly inside..but i guess i just wasted half the time and i am a little too late to make it stop..the feeling is like a scattered pieces of vase that fall from the edge of a table..even if the scattered pieces are glued together, it can never be the same old vase again..there'll be scratches here and there all around the vase..

i don't know why i should feel like this.i dont want to be like this..i just hate it when it comes to this kind of feelings.

well the only way out is to forget.i hope i can forget and erase the bittersweet memories that i've built for the past one year.