browsing 2009

this is my last post for 2009,a year that carve lot of memories going through my life..bittersweet memories indeed.


-got my driving license.drove like a mad girl.

-result spm!i did very bad n i regret.if only i study well,i think i wouldnt be stuck in arau for 3 years atleast.but no regret,life must go on.

-arau.1st time being away from mak.i'm slowly adapting.learn to be myself.arau taught me a lot of being myself.i made new friends in arau.arau opened my mind out of the box,taught me that life is not just me n my inner circles.

-being away with friends.we hardly meet each other now.i miss them.yes i really do.dulu tetiap hari tgk muka,now....

-been polluting my body with a lot of junk food.i consumed a lot of junk food.and i am ending 2009 with SLURPEE as companion.i am slowly increasing my blood-glucose level..

i thnk theres just too much to be listed here.2009 is the year where i found myself,where i learn how to be me,where i learn that life i not just about myself,where i learn not to be selfish..i have to care for the others too..

a year ahead means a year older.lets pray hard that 2010 will bring us joy,happiness,wealthy health and no more tears.to friends,may our friendship lasts forever!

....and off they go

yesterday,danial,sarah and their parents went back to Kuantan..
this morning,went to the airport to send amin n his parents back to KK..
just now at 8,went to the airport again sending ammar,adam and amir off to KL..
now,i feel like theres just nobody in the house..feel empty and lonely..
everything went back to normal..to daily routine..
oh,i just wish the time could be paused and we'll spend more time together..
2 months feel just like 2 weeks..
at first it is full-house,and just a blink,it WAS full-house..

i HAVE to change!

i dont like this kinda feeling..i cant control my temper.i got agitated and flustered most of the times when i talk about something that i know i cant have it in any possible way.i sometimes feel like going somewhere where there is just me,without anyone else that could say NO when i feel like doing something or going somewhere.when i act rudely or speak harsh words (to be exact),i feel like its a satisfaction to let it all out in an improper way of etiquette.and when im done,i'll feel guilty and tend to keep it to myself without any attempt to say sorry to them who i've thrown harsh words to.the problem here is,i usually let everything out to my loved ones,my mom is always the one.thats the real problem because she is my mother.

people who knew me well,my friends esp,might not know about this as i dont usually talk about the thing with them.they just dont know me wholly as i kinda keep little something myself.i dont tell them everything except my mother.they might say that i am soft spoken and rarely speak harsh.but thats just my alter ego and i dont like it.i am trying to build my patience.oh god,i need some help here.lets make a new fresh starts with this coming 2010.i need to change!i HAVE to change!

fingers-crossing for a prosperous and joyous life coming ahead!

gotta be somebody

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I'll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my own breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with

`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight, out on the street out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my own breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with?

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can´t give up!
Lookin´ for that diamond in the rough
You never know but when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.


Nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there.

*tiba-tiba tersuka lagu ni
**to frens yg tgh down sbb the breakups n whatsoever,try to be deep inside this lyrics.BANGKIT kawan!

;((

woke up this morning and my laptop is empty.
i mean,literally empty.
i lost everything that i've been keeping inside the hard disk.
i lost all the pictures since high school.
i lost the movies that i've been downloading eversince i know how to use torrent.
luckily theres no anything so important.
but i think,the pictures-the memories is the only thing i regret for losing it.
for some people,pictures may not be such a big deal,but the sentimental value is what im trying to highlight here.
i may lost all the picture with my friends,but memories will remain in my heart.

dont talk until it happens.for real!

aku dah tak nak harap apa dah..bila aku mencanang sini sana tentang sesuatu,pasti sesuatu itu tak akan menjadi ataupun tak menjadi seperti yang diimpikan..aku dah agak letih dah mungkin,bila perkara macam macam ni selalu terjadi dekat aku..mungkin lepas ni aku akan diam je lah apa apa yang akan atau sedang aku lakukan..jangan hairanlah lepas ni kalau aku bertukar jadi seorang yang tak bercakap atau pun bercakap seorang diri..mungkin "nabilah the geek" akan lahir lepas ni,siapa tahu.

i read this.U?

this is my reading material to fill my past time..hell yeah i have plenty of time to be killed..i'm currently reading this book..i'm halway of fininshing this romantic love story..i hope it will wraps up with a happy ending or else i swear i wont buy any other english romance novel as they are filthy expensive..i could possibly buy 2 malay novels at the price of one english novel..sheesh..hue hue.

hurm,just now after sending my cousin to tuition class,i had a conversation with my bro

apat:abg tak faham laa pasepa library tu kna pkai proper attire like wearing shoes
n long pants..whats the point?

me:ntah..pelik2 betoi rulesnya.

apat:cuba pkiaq,what has got to do with someone's appearance dgn nk baca
buku..xdak keja kaa nk besiap elok2 stakat nk p library ja pon..sbb tu laa
bebudak melayu mls nk p library..sapa yg sanggop kalot besiap elok2 stakat nk
p library ja pon..kalo nk p clubbing kot laa kan..that day,abg sound laa pakgad
tu cos he halau abg bcos i wear slippers n shorts.

me:heh?apat p library aloq staq?baca buku apa?

apat:ey,xcaya ka abg p library?abg cari buku A.Samad Said.

me:what the...*gelak tak tahan*

*sgt tak caya my bro sgt sastera..haha

semua dah tak penting kot..xdak hang lg bagus ok!nak sukaa kat orang lain pulak..hang tak setia ngan aku..xmau kawan dah.puiihhhh!

i just dont know what is the best.

i have an issue here.its about two things that means a world to me.its either friends or family..which should i pick?i cant have both at the same time.both are just priceless..if i choose friends,i wont be able to make it by 26th Dec for the feast and somewhat a gathering with my extended family..if i choose family,i wont be able to meet up my real good friends for the excitement..the thing is,i LOVE both..friends and family are just equal..or shall i play safe by not attending both..neither friends nor family,just me ALONE..i dont think thats good..i dont live a solitary life.

result

the result is finally out..alhamdulillah,but still i am not satisfied with it..i could have done a lot better than that..but theres just no use to keep whining and complaining about it considering my commitment of studying for the final exam..all i did was burning my every hours sleeping and lazing around..i couldnt have thank more for the result.

*nex sem:burn the midnight oil!heee

tag tag tag

i've been tagged by nawwal..she wrote that she tagged nabilala,hey,thats me laa kan??kan??haha
here comes the tag..oh btw,tnx nawwal for tagging me..

Bila kali terakhir anda pergi bercuti dan kenapa/sebab anda nak pergi bercuti?

woah..seems like ages lah my last cuti2 msia..cant recall when was our last vacation together..

Berapakah umur anda? adakah anda rasa puas dengan pencapaian anda diusia anda sekarang ni?

18 and counting on to be 19..woah,saya sgt tua..

Anda mungkin seorang blogger, bila waktu yang paling anda suka untuk update/kemaskini blog anda dan kenapa anda pilih waktu itu?

i usually blog during midnight when everybody asleep..haha..jiwang much ha?

Apakah matlamat anda untuk tahun 2010?
success,healthy,wealthy

Apakah yang berlegar2 dalam fikiran anda sekarang?

a dslr?haha

Apakah habbits anda?

tarik2 anak rambot msa tgk tv..haha

Senaraikan 4 perkara yang anda akan lakukan selepas menjawab tag saya ni?
1)set my butt on the car seat n yan,here i come
2)play with mikha sampai malam..haha

*saya pon tatau nk wat apa lg..

Adakah anda seorang yang pemarah/pendendam / bengis? dan cara anda mengatasinya

tak..saya perengus.haha

What happened to you in 2001 till 2004?

i was still a kid who just know to play.

Saya menge-tag:
sesiapajek yg trasa nk buat tag neh..terima kaseh

yeah,she finally lets her blog to be read publicly..i love to read her blog before,but last couples of weeks,oh maybe a month,she switch her blog mode to private and i cant read her blog..her writings kinda inspiring me a lot..and lets hope she wont switch it off to public again.

dear "little" sissie

had a fight with my 'retarded' sissie..ohmaigod,why on earth do i have a sis like her?she's such a cry baby with silly attitude and couldnt even act her age..she's 26 and not even married yet and i think she has a brain of 12 years old..she cant even think of the most easiest thing in the world..we often had fight just because.*can i say just because?i cant find good words to describe the cause of the fight*

at this time being,i HATE her..i know hate is a strong word,but i HATE her.

fearless

everytime i said to myself that i want to do something,the thing will never be done until one fine day,when the thought of doing that something just suddenly crosses my mind.

next time,dont promise to urself or anyone else of anything that u are unsure of it.

taktahu tajuk

plan nk mem'baking' apple pie tidak menjadi pada hari ini kerana saya dengan jayanya telah meng'herbinate'kan diri selama 5 jam dari jam 12 tgh hari sehingga 5 petang walaupun saya bangun pagi pada jam 8..hebatkan saya?mahu lawan?

mungkin esok pula saya akan teruskan misi tertangguh itu..sekiranya bantal dan tilam tidak menggoda mata dan nafsu saya,mungkin saya akan memuatnaikkan gambar pai epal esok..ya,mungkinlah..itupun sekiranya pai itu terjadi dengan jayanya..dan juga sekiranya pai epal itu sempat di'photoshoot'kan sebelum dibaham oleh si omnivor-omnivor yang berada di rumah *perasan pula saya macam saya masak sedap sangat*

tengoklah esok bagaimana keadaannya..oh ya,esok saya 'off' sehari..yeay,xperlulah saya menahan nafsu memaki orang semasa memandu..yeaahaa!

i'm thinking of baking tomorrow..my mood came accrosed me when i watched AFC this morning..i want to bake apple pie..yeah..went to giant this evening and bought everything needed for the pie..hopefully i'll wake up early tomorrow..muehehe..

oh yea,last two weeks i baked oreo cheesecake..i wanted to upload th picture but it end up me being drowned in time..muehehe..the cake was quite ok for the first trial..because i use more cheaper cream cheese instead of PHILADELPHEA cream cheese,my cake became not so cheesy like the one from Secret Recipe..
esok nk baking lagi..oh,i just love baking..hee..

i hit a car just now.i was reversing and suddenly,boom!i hit the car..luckily i wasnt speeding at that time..so,nothing happened to my car and that pakcik's car..what a relief..if not,where shall i find the money to pay for the 'treatment' of the car..

oh yeah,i am a full-time driver nowadays.sending and fetching mak no more,but sending and fetching my lil cousin from tuition classes as his parents left him here and they went back to sabah..frankly,i am sick of driving..i hate it when it comes to slow and steady driver in front of me..hey,wtf,i got no time to wait!

100th

i think i really need to start eating the right way..rice is my staple food..i need to get rid of that evil-fattening-make-me-fat staple food..i'm gaining weight!i need to worry about this bcos i'm already fat..if i have jessica alba's body,i wont be friggin worried..

what should i eat?will i survive if i eat fruits daily?vege is so a no-no bcos my throat just couldnt agree with those GREEN creatures..i'm praying that uni will open real soon bcos i eat less n exercise more when i'm in college as i have to walk to go anywhere..plus i have to climb up that fucking tall building to reach for my room..and when i'm at home,i keep pumping my body like pumping balloons with my imbalance diet and unhealthy life..and that is so shit..

all i want for now is a genie who could possibly grant my wish to have a body of jessica alba which i definitely 200% sure that i wont have one alike my whole life..

to make it worst,i am totally BROKE,helpless,hopeless and loveless..luckily i still have a brain that is still functioning quite well for this time being or else,please somebody get the gun and shoot straight on my head!

oh yeah,please put a teddy bear at my head before triggering the bullet..that will help to lessen the sound of the gun..tnx to CSI..

urm,one more thing,THANKS a bunch for spending ur precious time reading my crap..

thats all for today,
THANK YOU :))