hoi,apa nak jd ni nabilah??

i got a 700 words essay to write but i dont even have the feeling to get it done..

i learn about stress almost everyday which makes me stress too..

i have tonnes of formulas of solid mechanics,soil mechanics and calculus to be memorized but they dont seem to tempt me like facebook does..

i have issues with turbo C++ which i dont know how to get the coding done the right way but i seem to ignore that fact..

i should have stopped online-ing but it is just a part that completes my days like jigsaw puzzle..

the lecturers are busy arranging classes to cover cuti hari raya but that obviously doesnt even excites me..in fact,it just brings me down to the down-est of all downs..

hoi,apa nak jd ni nabilah??

piccas

oh haritu i said i'll upload the pictures i took in gua kerbau rite??

so here it comes..eh,they come!

muka excited smpai gua kerbau sbb nmpak byk kerbau..haha

xbyk gmbq time activity menyelamat sbb tak bwk hp msa panjat bukit..hee..tgu i pg sedut gmbq kt org lain k..hahaha

purghhh!

ok tak suka what im feeling right now..rasa mcm nak p sembunyi somewhere where no one else can find me..rasa mcm nk nangis but the tears couldnt come out..rasa mcm nk panjat bukit and be on top of it and scream my lungs out..i hate this kind of feelings where u couldnt do anything right..everything seems to be head over heels..and my brain cant even function well to make the right decision..and it feels like crap..these past few days,i got issues with my inner self where everything is not right in the first place..hey,pull me out please!

bla bla bla AGAIN!

i am now supposed to get my calculus tutorial done but still,i am in denial that i have tonnes of things to do..today,i ditched 3 classes in the evening session..i know i should be forbid to even think about it,but i dont know..the feeling of laziness lingers on me these past few days..so,i slept for 3 hours just now instead of just taking a nap..i ditched solid mechanics class and i know i gotta bear the consequences..i wont understand the whole topic and i know that..but still,im procrastinating myself that i know i can do that which is quite impossible for me reach unless i triple up my effort..next is soil mechanics..i think i can cope because just now was just a tutorial class..not lecture..so,i take the risk n im gonna bear the effect..the last one was CTU class and this 1 im 100% sure i can cope because everything is in the book..i just have to set my butt on the chair n study..

well,today has been nice..the pleasure of skipping classes cant be described..but of course the guilt is always there..oh yaa..this weekend is a packed one for me..i got bowling training this saturday and sunday is the tournament..grrr..when can i have just a day for myself??

gua kerbau

GUA KERBAU-once in a lifetime experience.

i dont expect that i can do that extremely extreme activity..like seriously extreme..panjat bukit,panjat curam 60 degrees,turun 90 degrees,usung mangsa yg berat jugak walopon orgnya kecik jaa..tp dh nmanya laki,mmg laa berat jugak..aku siap jatoh tergelincir lebam sana sini suma..mmg akan igt one whole lifetime laa..naseb baek laa ada si tiger yg sengal2 alang tu...walopon sengal,beguna jugak mamat tu..kalo dia tak grab aku,mmg arwah dh aku jatoh gaung tu..hish..nauzubillahh!

tp mmg fun lah camp JABATAN PERTAHANAN AWAM MALAYSIA tu even exhausting gila babs wa cakap lu!!tp semua tu dijadikan sbg pengajaran utk msa hadapan..

p/s:pictures will be uploaded later ;))

arau oh!

it has been roughly about a week since i set my butt here in arau..and so far,i gotta adapt myslef with the new environment here as i was moved to another college..not dahlia anymore..it kinda sucks at first because dahlia is like the first class of all colleges here in uitm perlis..i got beringin as my hostel..its like a house actually..with two rooms,4 persons each room that make up 8 persons a house..the worst part is,the house is equipped with 1 toilet and 1 bathroom..when it comes to the day where everyone in the house got class at 8 am,the problem arise..we have to fight for the bathroom to take shower..hoh..and i got to know new friends..my roomates are all in civil engineering and my other housemates are bankers..huehue..i gotta get to them well..im kinda hard to make new friends as i dont know how to start a conversation..but i hope i can cope well..hee

oh by the way,classes have started and i find it hard for me to cope with ECG which is basic soil mechanics because it has a lot of formulas to memorise..i mean A REAL LOT!plus the lect is being so fussy and cant even pronounce the terms correctly..and not bad-mouthing or what,but she has bad english which makes me kinda hard to understand what is she actually wants to say..sometimes i feel like raising up my hand and say 'mdm,boleh ckp melayu tak?' which obviously i dont..hah..

yes i CAN!

okay people,take a deep breathe everybody!
this is just the beginning..and all i need is time and strength..
time will change everything..and only time will..
with the he help of determination and effort,of course!
fingers-crossing for good luck and faith.

my english language lecturer ;))

walaweyh!i have an awesome superbly-dressed English Language lecturer in the whole wide world..how about you?

okay basically for the first 2 classes i've attend,he wore a jason mraz kinda hat (both different in each class..i think he has a room full of this kinda hat like i saw in mr morgarium wonder emporium..haha!) and his tie is put inside his shirt!and thats awesome rite??hahaha..

okay thats creepy..and what makes it more creepier is he had already given us an assignment to write 700 words essay on the first day of class!what else more creepier than that??

ish rasa mcm nk tekan button pause jaa kat semua remote yg ada kt dlm dunia ne so that the time will pause at least for a day..ish berat hatinyalah nk balek arau eventhough arau tu tak jauh mana dr rumah aku..i'll be missing all the fun..and that feels like crap..dh lama aku cuti smpai 2 bulan dah,depa tak rasa nk balek kampong pon..ne aku dh nk balek arau esok,mula lah suma pakat nak balek kumpoi ramai ramai kt yan..khianat tak khianat..bebai aku..hati berat gila kalah berat badan aku dah nk balek arau..aiseymen...i'll be missing the kenduri in penang tomorow..n i'll not be able to tease mikha n play with yaya..that is soooo SHIT.fullstop!

warkah buat parangers

pergh..tittle post tu tak boleh lagi grand ka??haha..actually,this post is basically about my hopes,my wishes,my doa and my expressions towards parangers,the lifetime friends of mine..though i know some of them will never read this as some of them dont even know that this blog exist,but yeah,im still gonna write this...let this be a memory in 10 years, 20 years to come..so here it is...

friends,

hope this will never ends,

even the bond couldnt be bent,

keep it tight as long as we can,

we can make it together we stand,

i will love u to the end!

bahaha..i know it craps..but who cares..

PUTERI NUR DIANA n NURUL ASHINAZ

-belajaq elok2 kt upsi tu..cinat,ang jgn tau nk melawa jaa..mengaji prabih dlu..put,toksah dok gatai nk kawen2 neh..aku geget stgi kalo dok gatai sgt nk menikah..mengaji tu pntg..haha

NUR HAFIFAH

-i know u can survive there..u've been there for a year and hey,ur still alive..heee..i love u to bits..dont forget us here..stadi elok2,jgn mengorat mat salleh pulak..haha

AZIEATUL AZRIN n NURUL ATIQAH

-guys,ur the luckiest to be able to b together smpai masok degree..hah amek kau!kalau dok 1 bilik jugak,mmg bonding cap gam uhu kot..kuat sunggoh dr dlm kelas time skolah dok seblah2..hee..tnx sbb aritu lyn aku msa aku depressed..jd budak bermasalah dgn aku..heh..goodluck dkt UM..jgn dok menggatai cri boifren2 neh..haha

AZIMAH

-hang dok elok2 kt ganu tu..toksah dok tensyen2..keja mmg laa byk slagi nmanya keja..mmg tapenah habeh..stadi elok2..nnt aku nk tgk hg balek jd cikgu segak n berwibawa..haha..ayat nk

hat superb ja an..hee..nnt kita wat cuppies lg okeyh..goodluck syg!

SITI NADIRAH

-nadie,blajaq elok2 kt uniten tu..sama gak,jgn dok gatai2 ngn boifren..haha..ada tu simpan elok2..haha..sorry laa hritu tak sempat kita nk hu ha hu ha mndi sungai besama..xdak rezeki hg nk hangout ngn km kot aritu..xpa,next time okeyh!goodluck bebeh..wat degree civil cm aku gak..lpaih ne bukak firm sma2 no..haha

HIKMAH MALIK

-hat ne aku nk nasihat byk sket..ang dok usm tu diam diam sudah..usm pon takpa..penang tu membangun gak..arau pon kalah..haha..mmg laa takleh shoping byk2,tp baguih pa,seb sket duit

ang hat slalu tadak tu..haha..ang pkiaq nk p mengaji laa,bukan nk p berhibur shoping sana sini..nnt cuti sem buleh lg nk p kl ka singapore ka nk bulan pon buleh aku tak kesah..mengaji dulu yg penting..ha 1 lg,ang jgn tesangkot ngn budak nerd button-up sudah..almaklumlah budak bio kan nerd tak habeh..haha..goodluck buddy!

NURUL ATAILLAH

-atai,heee..love to kol u that name..satu2nya kwn aku yg nma dia unik..heee..goodluck bebeh..nnt ang balek aku nk tgk DR. ada kt nametag ang besama kot puteh dan stetoskop di leher..hehe..aku tau ang boleh buat..its ur passion kan..dr dulu d

etermine nk jd doctor..goodluck dkt india nnt!

IZZAH SYAZWANI

-lama tak jumpak budak ne..buddy,nnt we have to really meet bfore ang fly to japan..i know u can survive dkt um neh..i know u really can..eyh nnt kalo balek aloq staq,call me ok..aku try balek n teman ang p jmpk ckgu zatul kesayangan ang..hee..i love u!

NAWAL KHALTOM

-ur the last one man!goodluck p uia tu...mengaji lek lok..blajaq arab tu nnt balek ajaq aku lak..haha..tudung ang tu bg labuh2 sket stgi kena saman lak kt sana..haha..toksah dok keja nk kerat tudung jaa..tdg ang hat pendek2 tu suma juai kt aku kaih..aku pkai kt arau

takpaa..haha..blajaq jd lawyer yg beriman sket..hahaha..nnt kalo ada masa n ada duit,aku nk p sana,ang bwk aku p gentiing naa..kita plan elok2 ngn bontot yg lg 2 org tu..haha..goodluck weyh!slamat pkai jubah!haha

there goes all 11 of them..11 person that brighten up my life..

oh hey,almost forgot..theres another one..my shining star..

dear afiqah ahmad,though ur not one of my parangers,but hey,ur my best buddy..best-est ever that i have..ur my crying shoulder..aku slalu nangis kan bila kol hang??..haa..maluuu..but jyeah,u understands me well..n u always made my day..though i know im not the best for u to have as a friend,but ur the best for me..sorry i wasnt there when u called,when u msgd me..but u shud know that ur always near me though ur far away..goodluck in ALBERTA..i know u can survive there..pray for me to be able to get the ticket to visit u..then,VEGAS here we come!hoho..goodluck baby..i love u!

the power of time

the time has come..

no matter how long the waiting is,the time will eventually come..and for me,the time has come..the time for me to set my butt and back again to the place where i learn new things though the place isnt quite amazed and pleased me..but again,i have to face it..this period of time will eventually ends sweetly as 2-months of break is waiting for me in november..but before reaching it,i gotta get through this first..and i promise im gonna bring out the best that i have to conquer it.yes i promise!

it doesnt matter whether ur ready or ur not..gotta get ready from now on..what im saying is random..it doesnt count be it in terms of relationship,life and death,together and apart,new and old,new and worn-out..yeah whatever it is,the time will come..as the saying goes,time heals everything..but always have to remember that time reaps up everything too..