Monday, October 31, 2011

its been some times since i last blogged.there are just sooooooo many things happened in my life recently.i lost my dear uncle to a cancer.he fought till the very end and it was a mighty devastation to see how he went through all the pain..i was closed to him.closed enough for me to feel numb and eventually pain in the heart that i couldnt even shed a tear when i heard the news that he passed away.i was in kl at that very time.i was a little taken aback when i heard that he had gone.i was in hesitation of not to go to kl to have fun despite of my dear uncle was bedridden and warded..but my sister convinced me that everything will be fine and we decided to go..not even 72 hours of so called fun,there was a phone call from my mum saying that he's critical and we decided to go back.i felt and still feeling a little regret of not being able to see him for the last time before he passed away.

well, ALLAH knows best.we never knew what is written for us in the future.we may plan whatever we want but still, ALLAH holds the power to grant or not to grant our dreams and wishes.we just have to pray and not stop praying.

AL-FATIHAH to my late PAKLANG

Friday, October 14, 2011

it's semester break,but my heart and my mind are definitely not on break.the thought of him keeps lingering in my mind..i kinda keep relating every single thing happening in my daily life to him..i'm sick of myself you know?

this is totally absurd!bullshit yes i know..

but the more i get to know him, the more good things i can see in him..and that makes me fall for him even more..and the thing i regret is, he doesn't even notice how i feel about him..

YOU,if only you knew how much i think about you..haih!

well, at some point,i hope i can erase the feeling towards him.i myself get confuse whether he is the drug or the cure..he kinda makes me feel 'addicted' and wants more out of him..

urgh,please someone give me a slap and make me realize that life isn't always getting what i want!

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

i'm done with MUET..
well, done with just only 'speaking' part which is the most crucial part that was torturing me just thinking about it..i was like freaking worried till i couldnt sleep last night!it was like something that were twisting my intestines inside!i swear im not lying..that was how i felt before the test!

its not that i can't speak, yes i can..but getting myself at the table with 2 invigilators who were just focusing on me,the words didnt just came out..i gotta squeezed my brain hard to bring out the words.

speaking is not the same as writing..i'd prefer writing more than speaking..i can write whatever you wish me to write,but not speaking!i got too nervous just thinking about it..i'd rather write 5 essays than speaking!hee

luckily my partners are cool enough to cooperate well with me..they were my juniors and i get along quite well with them.thank god!

gotta get myself ready for writing,listening and reading!

Friday, October 7, 2011

i had a day of my life.


that is all i can describe how i felt yesterday (oct.6.2011).it was a post-exam syndrome i would say.i ended my final examination for semester 5 and we the NR straightly headed to padang besar and had fun!i bought myself a signature t-shirt of I <3 HATYAI..i've been collecting those signature tees and currently i have 6 of different countries :))



my feet were aching so much of extra-long walking and browsingthrough the bazar because of the not so comfy shoes i wore..i should have worn another comfy shoes but yeah, it was all worth it..i don't mind much..


should have you been to padang besar, you would have known that the scenery along the way to padang besar is such breathtaking and picturesque aite?we stopped by the roadside and did some so called photoshoot before we headed back home..



and later after maghrib prayers we went out AGAIN to dine out with the guys..they wanted to join us so we went to POKOK BULUH WESTERN FOOD.the food was just so-so and i'd give 2 and a half stars out of five!the joyous moments continues until late night and the guys decided to assist us back home as it was already late night..really enjoyed myself today!thanks guys!


hope that i'll get the chance to hang out with my girlfriends and boyfriends again even if we are already done with diploma.being around them just light up my day!so here

are some pictures of yesterday.

enjoys :))