happy birthday,MALAYSIA

31st August 2010-53 years on independence for our beloved country,MALAYSIA.

do we really are independent enough?

ask yourself.what have we contribute to our beloved country our whole life?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,MALAYSIA!

movie maniac

last night was a movie marathon for me..i dare to indulge myself even when i am in the middle of 'war' with my studies,even i know that i did crap in my soil mechanics test..i did study even it was last minute..when going through the test,i was cursing all the way..i was clueless on almost every question in the test..like what the fuck this question is??i thought it was just me having issues with the question,but when the test ended,my friends were all moaning and telling me they too did crap in the test..haha..and thats kinda relieved for me n the guilty of not studying hard literally decreased at the moment..so last night i decided to watch movies..heee..

i watched 2 love-romantic-comedy movies which are obviously my kind of movies..yes,say it im mushy or what,but thats the kind of movie that can make me laugh and cry at the same time..hoho..i know how pathetic i am!okay okay back to main story..i watched LOVE HAPPENS and THE LAST SONG..the one with miley cyrus in it was soo touchy and i cried watching this movie..the love of the father is well delivered in this movie..heart-warming i would say..well for love happens,i smile all the way from the start until the end!i like these movies..these 2 are recommended to be watched..well of cos if u watched it all alone without any interruptions..

when theres no one there to dry your tears

she's finally gone..gone to pursue her dream of becoming an economist..the girl i knew since the age of 14,has finally flew to spread her wings..one thing i'll remember about her always is that she's a girl who dare to dream and dare to fulfill her dream..she's full of determination..she's one kind of a motivator to me..she's been with me through thick and thin,through rain and shine..and im not afraid to tell the world that i've spilled a gallon of tears on her shoulder..i know i always have her whenever i have problems..she's my advisor in buying new dvds..she has a great taste in music..we share a lot in common..i surely gonna miss her..even we are miles apart,but one thing she should know is that im never gonna forget about her..im gonna miss everything about her..

dear afiqah ahmad,

goodluck in everything..take good care of yourself there in edmonton..study hard and i wanna see u when u comeback as an economist..not an ordinary one..but the great one!!i love u!

when evening shadow and the stars appear

1.you see,i am now suppose to study soil mechanics since the test is on the day after tomorrow..my mind is full of nothing and still i am way too lazy to get out of my comfort zone..still,procrastination is playing its role way too great until it's manipulating my life turning it 180 degrees up side down.

2.the thought of changing course keeps corrupting my mind these past few weeks..HOWEVER,i cant see my future being anything else but engineer or at least,a consultant..its like having a love-hate relationship with the course im taking now..its not how tough the course is that i cant endure (hopefully i can,at least until i finish my degree),but its like doing the things that u dont like your whole life..hey,why the heck im taking this course in the first place??

3.these past few weeks,i have major issue getting out of my bed..me bed has always been the most comfortable place ever exist on earth (my bed at home is of course more tempting than what i have here in the hostel)..i've always being late to class..the worst is i ditched the classes more often than last 2 semesters..

4.im trying so hard right now..im pushing myself further..as far as i can go..if possible,far more beyond words...i promise that i'll finish whatever i started..be grateful for what i have and make myself happy out of every single problems appear..by then,everyone will be happy and the world will be a better place to stay..

i was nothing more than a girl who wish for something different

slap me right on my face.

bang my head on the wall.

scream right to my ears.OUT LOUD!

i need something to trigger me to face the truth that i need to STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY!!

im loosing the spark..im loosing the spirit..im loosing focus in class..oh god,i need help!

panas panas panasnya MENTARI!

dari semalam aku pendam benda alah ni dalam hati..sejak handphone aku bunyi sbb cik nawal telefon and tell me everything about that thing..panas ja rasa dlm hati..eh chup chup..bukan stakat hati ja..kepala sekali rasa berasap!

eh kau!bawak bawaklah bertaubat der..aku sampai sekarang still tak paham apa laa yg hang cari gadoh sangat dgn kami perempuan perempuan muslimah ni..aku tak nampak pon sebab musabab yg bernas yg boleh hang jdkan sbb yg kukuh nk cari gaduh dgn km..ish ish..grow up lah der!dah 19 kot..yg kau sangap sangat sampai tahap kritikal tu apahal??hal hal dlm kelambu tak nak amek tau skali ka der??

yellow miniskirt and stripy pantyhose?

despite of all the assignments and other academic responsibilities that are piling up day by day,i choose to go home!

this week is the only week for me to ditch up everything related to arau until i can go back for 2-weeks-raya-break next next week which is on the 4th since i have replacement class for the bloody stupid 'ko'!!classes have been going quite well but BEL has loosen my attention..the spark is not there anymore..and math too..everyday,he keeps coming up with new malay-math term which i never heard of before..the rest are quite okay but nothing is good..just okay..

yesterday,my mum fetched me up around 7.15 pm and we had our buka puasa in the car by the road side..haha..but still every and each seconds were treasured since im surrounded by the most awesome woman in my life..ehehe!!

okay lets not have soooo much fun until the semester ends!!i have to face the most crucial enemy of mine next week!!its soil mechanics test!yeah i know,some may say its just ecg,no problem..but hey,ecg has been the most deadliest subject ever for me..i've screwed up my 2 quizzes before..making it worst,i scored single mark for my 1st quiz and that is freaking the hell out of me!i dont ever want to repeat this paper..all i want for now is for me to pass this paper..i dont demand for an A..that doesnt even cross my mind..

lets see what is waiting for me,seeking the attention and tender love care from me before i can ditch them all for hari raya!

1.csc-quiz 3

2.ecg-test 1

(and probably quiz 3 too)

3.csc-test 1

4.ctu-assignment

5.ecm-model prototype

6.math-test 1

7.bel-term paper

yaw,goodluck people!!!!!!!!!!

fight for our right!

As fragile as glass.yes thats what i feel right now.

I thought that i was strong..no,i was wrong..as long as i am a woman,a girl,a lady,theres nothing i couldnt do to stop the tears from falling..today i realised that i gotta work hard for whatever i want..theres just no point of pointing fingers blaming others for what i couldnt reach for..no one can be blamed except me..its me in the first place who didnt take any action to make myself ready for everything..

i have always have issues to fight with my inner self where half of it always say its fine and the other half saying the opposite ones..and most of the time,i am always in denial of every fact that i should do it the right way..and i got carried away with this kind of feelings until it caught me with bad sequences..and now,i gotta get back on track..dont doubt if i am not myself anymore.

thank you sir

yesterday i had 2 tests..yes 2 tests in a DAY..great huh??they were material and solid mechanics which i crap all the way until i dont know what else to write..i screwed up my solid mechanics paper as i didnt study earlier..5 hours before the test start,then i open my book and set my big butt on the chair in the library..yes i know im great!im the best in studying last minute..find me to know how it is done..bahaha..

enough said..today,sir jiwa noris made my day!yeay,because of him,i can go back to alor setar this weekend and buka puasa with my family..and the most important thing is,i'll get the chance to meet my best buddy before she fly to canada!!!yehaaa!!i love u lah,sir!

wind force causes the sky rise building sway

happy ramadhan,people..

1st day of ramadhan this year was ok..i dont feel like im fasting and all the food in bazar ramadhan didnt even seem to tempt me..but anyhow,i spent rm9 just on food..that was all because the-not-delicious-at-all ayam percik which cost me rm5..i swear im not gonna buy it ever again..okay enough of the swearing-cursing session..

today,i had a speaking practice and all i did was crap but the lect said that we're good and we're on the right track..and that made my day!hee..oh,back to the swearing-cursing part,'yeay' me because i cant go back to alor setar because i have tests and replacement classes these weekends until im off for cuti hari raya..that is the part i hate most where i cant go back to gather with my extended family..and i seem cant meet my best friend ever before she fly to canada..and that is soo freaking sad ;((

fun fun FUN

today was quite a disastrous day for me..i ditched (again) csc class because i woke up late today!oh my..apa nk jd pon tatau laa..and it was just my body in ecg class..my soul and my brain were absent..i cant even understand what she was babbling about in front..luckily i can cope with ecs sbb suka sir itu..haha..gatai!!oh,last nite,i had an awesome dinner with half of awesome classmates..best lah..asyik gelak most of the time smpai org tgk pelik jaa..here are some pics of last nite..enjoys ;D

topic for my term paper has been rejected.REJECTED,man!

skrg aku tgh emo nk cari topic yg sesuai for my term paper..and this term paper is a no bullshit..it carries 30% of my marks..dan mana aku nk cari haa??